I hold her, my heart healed, my soul once more whole.
Now, Forever and Always
These words were spoken to me by my wife yesterday evening as we stood before each other and renewed our vows.
Psy has always been good with words. Not me. I don’t have words to describe the love I have for my wife. Even yesterday, as we exchanged vows, I fumbled over my words, having a hard time saying what I was feeling.
I am not an easy kitten to be with, I know. I aggravate her with my stubbornness. I know she hates the way I forget to put the cap on the toothpaste tube. And I don’t always remember to tell her when I am going to be home late. But she still loves me. She never points out my flaws, she never draws attention to my mistakes. She just loves me for me. She accepts me for who I am and everything I am and loves all of it.
I tell her I don’t deserve her. Its cliche, I know, but there isn’t another way to say it. I feel so special because of her. I feel like she deserves someone who is a better lover and care taker. Someone who can be a better provider. I just, I guess I feel like I just wanna curl up in her arms and beg for her to never let me go. I need her in my life.
When I am home alone, my heart feels empty. I roam around the house bored and unable to find anything I want to do. I do a little dusting, I rearrange the furniture, I play solitaire triple triad…I mope about and feel “blah”. My heart like legit aches. I can’t seem to cure the pain, only Psyiah can. Only the sound of the front door closing and the sound of her voice as she calls to me, can heal that pain. I throw my arms around her and welcome her home with a big hug. I hold her, my heart healed, my soul once more whole.
I have a very technical mind, and its hard for me to put my emotions into words. Hell all I’ve done here is blabber and throw together random thoughts trying to piece together a way to let my wife know she is my entire world and without her, nothing matters.
Psyiah, if you’re reading this, please know that you are my one true love. I would give up anything for you. You really truly do make my world a better place.
“A week ago I sensed a great stress in your voice, there was something there speaking to me without words. It called my name, begging me to hold it and protect it. I suggested we spend the day together and as such we have. The voice has been silenced, it calls to me no longer. This brings me peace and comfort. My dearest Psyiah; as we explore our new sexually open lives with each other, I want you to remember this. Remember the day your soulmate heard your cry and came to your side. No hesitation, delay or question. Your soulmate heard your cry and suddenly the world around her was nothing but a noisy gong, lost in the back ground as she focused on your needs. No matter the paths we take or the friends we make, I will always be here listening, even when you speak no words.”
Words I spoke to my wife, at the conclusion of a wonderful day together. Listen to your spouses, girl/boy friends, masters or significant others. Listen to them when they are not speaking for it is during that time they will say the most.
Today I was able to take off from work and stayed home. Boy, was it needed… last week was a roller coaster and this weekend was not any better. So many emotions… But Anni and I made a day of it today!
It started when I was getting back from my friends house. I stayed overnight with her. It was such a good night too! Anni was not home, so I took advantage and cleaned up the place a bit. I instructed two maids to make us a nice warm meal for brunch. Anni came home and I welcomed her. She told me about what happened with her master and the outcome. As her wife, I wasn’t going to lecture her, but give her love.
We went to the bath and talked about things as I washed her beautiful body.
Soon after finishing our sensual bath we headed up stairs for brunch. It was nicely served with all sorts of goodies. Scrambled eggs, sashimi, steak, noodles, and tea, along with other fresh fruits. I had a plan for entertainment as well… with our maids.
I recently hired a new one, she is pretty and very sweet. She is an AuRa and I hired her for a reason. Upon reaching a decent part of the meal, I thought it would be best to commence the entertainment. The maids where to have sex in front of us! It was so hot, seeing them go at each other. I saw the kitten suck on the AuRa’s tail and it reminded me of Anni’s master… really hot. The two went at it and Anni and I fingered each other as we looked. Gods.. it worked out better than I imagine. Eventually we all came and it was such a rush seeing two have sex in front of us for our entertainment. We soon cleaned up and headed down to a special place.
Where it all began….
The spot where my life changed forever…
I brought her here and reminded her where it all began. I showed her a shell I left on the sand about 1 year ago. And it still remains. I was actually surprised it was there and not in the ocean. I picked it up and showed her, as a gift, a token of my undying love for her. We enjoyed the night sky was so peaceful and all because Anni was here with me.
The Shell
We sat for a bit and enjoyed each others company. It was nice to get away from it all and just enjoy each others presence.
She is my world, my love, my everything♥
Soon after, when it became dark, Anni began to nurse on me. The sensation and feeling from this ritual that started last year is so sacred and loving. What started as an experiment turned into something that fills my heart of joy. Although I have shared my milk with someone else, the pure love I get from my wife’s nursing can’t compare. We laid on the grass enjoying the moment and love we both share for each other.
Such beauty to behold♥
Anni and I talked a bit and she said some words that hit my heart… my very soul.
“A week ago I sensed a great stress in your voice, there was something there speaking to me without words. It called my name, begging me to hold it and protect it. I suggested we spend the day together and as such we have. The voice has been silenced, it calls to me no longer. This brings me peace and comfort. My dearest Psyiah; as we explore our new sexually open lives with each other, I want you to remember this. Remember the day your soulmate heard your cry and came to your side. No hesitation, delay or question. Your soulmate heard your cry and suddenly the world around her was nothing but a noisy gong, lost in the back ground as she focused on your needs. No matter the paths we take or the friends we make, I will always be here listening, even when you speak no words.“
These words gave me a large impact, the meaning behind it, the connection she has with me, the very fibers that make me who I am… and she gets me. This… this is how I know I have dedicated my life, to the person who is meant for me. Who I have chosen, by the paths and blessing of the gods, to be my wife. One could not ask for anyone better, loving and absolutely caring no matter what.
Thank you for this day Annimae Nalani, for I will never forget it. You are my wife, my partner, my lover, my addiction, my passion, my lust, my savior, my protectors, and my bacon!
-Your loving wife, Psyiah Nalani, yours now, forever, and always.♥
Make no mistake about it, there is only one kitten I ever want to spend the rest of my life with. In just a few short days we will recommit ourselves to each other as we renew our vows on our anniversary.
My dearest Psyiah; as our day approaches, wake each morning and know I am thinking of you. You are my bride for yesterday, today and every day until the ends of our lives.
The past few days has been interesting. My emotions running wild, my mind constantly wondering. I…
Well I asked my master last night a hard question that… That has been on my mind for a while. I spoke to my wife about it and let her know how I felt. She suggested I not let my worries hold me back and to be honest with my feelings…
I asked my master to be released. Not because something she did, or something like that. But instead because of the idea of being owned… As it is fun, I think it is not for me. Anni and I roleplayed as master/sub and… it just was not as fun as I thought it would be. I think its just not for me.
But that does not mean that my feelings for my master, now friend, have changed. I still very much like her, and she was and is such a caring soul. Her heart opened up and took me in, and I really appreciate it.
So last night I think I felt something. We didn’t fuck or just have sex, I mean the mood was right, but instead, I think we made love. It was hot, don’t get me wrong… Phew Lawrd those eyes… Her skin, her touch. It was… Ahem sorry, stay on track Psyiah…
Well, I know it hurt her a bit to let me go as her slave, but she still has a friend who cares for her. And I think I showed her that last night.
~Psyiah 💓